Happy 17th Birthday Shadow!!

Today my beautiful baby boy turns 17! I can not believe he has been with me for more than half of my life! He was given to me in 1992 and he was about 8-12 weeks old.

Shadow, you are my baby boy, my son and I love you more than you will ever know. Momma's going to try very hard today to not think about the fact that she knows this is the last birthday you will ever see. She's going to try very hard not to cry today. I'm so very thankful that I have had 17 wonderful years with you and though I will have more cats throughout my lifetime (Darwin & Charlee included) no one will ever compare to you. You are special. You are one of a kind! You are #1 in my heart now and forever.

Though today is bittersweet I am still extremely happy that you made it here. I'm so sorry your sister Porkchop is not with us to share it.

Well,

Happy Birthday again Shadow my love!

Here's to 17 fantastic years of love and companionship! I love you...

So yesterday was my 25th birthday. I truly can't believe I am 25. While I am on the subject, let me point out that if you are older than me and I express dislike and disbelief over being 25 kindly shut the fuck up. My world, my opinions on it. I'm not judging you so why should you give a shit that I feel old? I'm amazed at how time flies...and people who act all superior (oh you are so NOT old! or I'm going to be ::insert older age here::) can go take a flying leap. KTHNXBYE

Anyway....
Some goals by 25 were accomplished. I am married. However that was the only accomplished goal. I don't have any children and I'm not pregnant. I also can't strut around confidently in a bikini. Of course neither of those are my fault...still kinda disappointing. Oh well.
J was home from work yesterday, which was nice. We went out to a fish restaurant for lunch since I have been all about the shrimps lately. :) Then later in the evening we all went out to dinner and by al I mean my mum and his family. (Yeah I know, happy fucking birthday I get to see my inlaws) Truthfully they weren't too bad last night, well except my brother in law. He is disgusting for a 15 year old. They treat him like a baby and so he acts like one. He doesn't eat much and so he ordered plain pasta and steak. Ok, fine. Now rather than cutting it he just kinda bent down to the plate and chewed. It was gross. Ugh.

On a happier note I am now the proud owner of a Wii Fit. It's not too bad actually. I haven't really played with it too much yet. I do have the time though...

Anyway, that's all from me for now.

I had an eventful day today, first a three hour interview (oh yes..I plan on leaving my current position, or at least severely cutting down the hours) and then off to Lahey clinic for appointment numero uno in a long ine of upcoming appointments. Yes my new pcp is running the gamut on tests for me, he's determined to figure out whats wrong BEFORE we tackle the lack of pregnancy for me. Last week we talked and he tok about 15 tubes of blood (fun) and today was an ultra sound. Now I'm special, I got a regular ultrasound as well as a trans vaginal ultrasound, the 3rd I've ever had (the 2nd in the last 6 months...) Now if you've never had one of these you don't know what you are missing!
(Did you catch my sarcasm??) This little bad boy I nicknamed Pretty Fly as in, for a white guy (I mean look at this thing!?) It's not horrible but it certainly isn't comfortable. :(
Hehe, now you all know why my blog has a warning. LOL

So I wish I had more to say. I could type and bitch about my job but ya know, it's not worth it right now.
I've currently got a corned beef boiling away on the stove and it smells divine!! I'm getting hungry! It should be done in about 30 minutes. YUM YUM YUM!

In other news, my 25th birthday is coming up (the 31st) Apparently my husband is planning something...::shrugs:: but I dunno! I've never had a party or a get together...could be exciting!

Well I should go check on my dinner. I'll TRY to be better about this thing!

Whoever

invented white chocolate coconut coffee creamer is a GOD or GODDESS!! It's so good I don't think I even cared that it wasn't low fat. ::shrugs:: Well it is Saturday (for those who had yet to notice) and this Saturday my husband does NOT have his head in the toilet and I don't have a migraine (yet). It's a good day. Shadow has already supplied me with his urine sample for this week (good kitty) and Darwin is actually calm for the moment. J is in the office doing who knows what on the computer and I'm here enjoying my coffee. I'm trying to not stress and I think so far I'm doing ok. I have to make another doctor's appointment. My mother in law switched my PCP for me and now it's time to start it up. I'm feeling extremely uncomfortable since I didn't get my period this month either and I don't feel it coming. I thought maybe....but no. So that keeps my no blood for 09 streak going. Hot dog.

It's the last day of February today which means tomorrow starts the birthday countdown. 1 Month until the big 25. I told J I wanted to do something that we've never done for my b-day which would be see people but I think I may just be fooling myself. We have so few friends and I do mean few...to the point where no one remembes my birthday unless I remind them, and now with the advent of facebook and myspace and those lovely reminders. Yay. Even still, it's on a weekday this year and I truly hate celebrating things on a day that they aren't so...
I may have just successfully convinced myself that celebrating my birthday is a bad idea. :) Go me. I wonder if that is a marketable skill. Speaking of which I need to figure out what my marketable skills are...

Enough rambling from me I am sure I am boring you to death. I should finish up this coffee and go take a shower.
Until next time blogger...