Another one bites the dust

And the shitty economy claims another victim. Up on the chopping block is our home. J and I simply can not afford to live in the apartment anymore without me having a job so the goal is to be out by the end of the month. Where to? His parents. It's enough to make me suicidal. I loathe living there so much. Of course we'll be there just in time for our 1 year anniversary.

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I've had my cry...who are we kidding, I'm still crying now. I just don't know what else to do...
I love having my own space, my own kitchen, washer,dryer, bathroom, dining room....

This is death.

Yes I would like fries with my shake!

For the past two nights in a row my husband has opted for sleep over sex. What the hell?! Sorry, now you know why my blog has an adult content warning. I'm more than a little annoyed. I may have to just jump him when he comes home but it's just not my style...
::sigh::
Today was semi-productive. I went on a nice long walk today (will be paying for it tmw), hell I even broke a sweat! I also got beeped at...hehe my booty has still got it apparently, of course it does seem to always attract the same type...oh well, still an ego boost.
I got an email from a job I emailed my resume to yesterday. They want to do a phone interview tomorrow at 2:30. Too bad I have a doctor appointment at 1:00. I hope I am done by the time they call. It's little things like this that stress me out hardcore. :( I know it's not really a big deal, but I totally wig out.
Let's see...Darwin is cute as a button but he is also a devil-cat. OMG if he doesn't knock off whatever the hell he does at the ass crack of dawn I may be selling him on Ebay! The of course you pick him up to scold him and the paws come up, the eyes go to slits and he turns on his motor. The little shit knows he irresistible. Shadow has taken to sleeping on my second pillow above my head and Darwin sleeps between my knees and J has the whole other side of the bed to move freely. Jerk. I may be married but I am still a cat lady. Last night he looked at them and said we didn't have enough, we needed more cats. This from a self-proclaimed DOG person. LOL, he has actually adjusted, he's an animal person. Reason #7649 why I married him.
Ugh, did I just leak a little sap?

So in all seriousness I have been thinking about writing a book for some time now. As I was in the shower today (hey, it's where I do my best brainstorming) I started to piece it together a bit more and then I got to the question of fleshing out my main character, she would obviously need a back story, I mean what she does day to day. In short, her job. I feared I would be unable to believably write about her job and thus the whole thing would fall apart. I must be crazy...
Am I crazy? I'm thinking your silence breeds consent. Gee thanks guys!
OK! Enough rambling, I gotta throw dinner in the over. Marinated pork in the worlds greatest pork marinade. YUM!

I had an eventful day today, first a three hour interview (oh yes..I plan on leaving my current position, or at least severely cutting down the hours) and then off to Lahey clinic for appointment numero uno in a long ine of upcoming appointments. Yes my new pcp is running the gamut on tests for me, he's determined to figure out whats wrong BEFORE we tackle the lack of pregnancy for me. Last week we talked and he tok about 15 tubes of blood (fun) and today was an ultra sound. Now I'm special, I got a regular ultrasound as well as a trans vaginal ultrasound, the 3rd I've ever had (the 2nd in the last 6 months...) Now if you've never had one of these you don't know what you are missing!
(Did you catch my sarcasm??) This little bad boy I nicknamed Pretty Fly as in, for a white guy (I mean look at this thing!?) It's not horrible but it certainly isn't comfortable. :(
Hehe, now you all know why my blog has a warning. LOL

So I wish I had more to say. I could type and bitch about my job but ya know, it's not worth it right now.
I've currently got a corned beef boiling away on the stove and it smells divine!! I'm getting hungry! It should be done in about 30 minutes. YUM YUM YUM!

In other news, my 25th birthday is coming up (the 31st) Apparently my husband is planning something...::shrugs:: but I dunno! I've never had a party or a get together...could be exciting!

Well I should go check on my dinner. I'll TRY to be better about this thing!

Working Stiff...

I got a job! I'm the new Admin at R.L Steven's and Associates in Waltham. Check out their website. www.interviewing.com

Not bad huh?

It'll help pay the bills. ;) 

Shadow is NOT happy with me out all day. He mouthes off as soon as he hears my key in the door. It's cute in an extremely annoying sort of way. It's ok though, I miss him too. :) I do love that he begins to purr as soon as he hears me call him baby. So cute!

In other news there is still no sign of AF. I had some very minor pink streaking two days ago but a pt on the fly revealed another BFN, which I suspected. I wouldn't have tested again but when the tests are only a buck...what the hell right?

Still no Af signs. This is something to bring up with the Endo so I'm sorta glad I haven't gotten it. I hope I don't so he will see exactly what I have been dealing with.

Well, time for dinner. Heading to Fridays. Ciao!

Waiting...tick tock tick tock

Ya know, when I started this blog it was solely for my TTC adventures. Now I think I have just grown away from my livejournal. I still have it and will keep it for the communities I guess, but I seem to have stopped updating it. Oh well. Maybe I just haven't figured out blogger yet, but how do I search for blogs relating to certain topics? 

Currently I am playing the waiting game. No, not about AF (though it still hasn't shown up and I don't have any symptoms. Maybe the hiatus has begun again?) but about a job. I had a fabulous interview on Tuesday and the asked me to come in again on Wednesday for a "working" interview. I actually got paid in cash for it! They also had me fill out a w-4 and an employee agreement because they are serious about me. They did have a few other interviews today as well as Monday. They are making their decision on Monday but I seem to be the candidate to beat so...yeah, playing the waiting game. I want the job but I am also extremely terrified of office work! I know everything is a learning experience and I am also well aware that I am intelligent and I can handle it but still....my anxiety could be the death of me!

So readers, point me in the direction of some fascinating blogs and distract me from this waiting game!

Not my finest hour...

So things seem to be going well for everyone but me. while I am very happy for them I can't help but examine my own situation and feel bummed. Please don't think I am an awful friend, I just can't help being a bit sad. First congrats must go out to Tara, she finally saw those two little pink lines. I'm very happy for your girl, the baby dust must have stuck well! Also, another friend TeawithFrodo seems to be having good signs all over the place though holding a collective breath until she finds out for certain tomorrow. (Crossing fingers for ya!!) 

So yes, good news all around. Of course now I'm feeling very mopey and left out. I'll get over it. I am Queen of rationalizing things and if this isn't our month too then it is just as well, it'll give me time to get in touch with an Endo and see if I can't drop a little weight before packing on some pregnancy pounds. I also signed up for the gym today and have my first of two free personal training sessions tomorrow. So yes, skinny me here I come! (Oh if only I was truly this positive...) 

I'm also a bit bummed due to the job front. I saw what appeared to be a easy job-answering phones and answering emails and faxes for a start-up. It was $8/hour which I didn't love but figured for such an easy job something would be better than nothing. they also promised bonuses and raises as the company progressed and got stronger. Great right!? Wrong. I got an email back telling me that this position would be a huge step down for me and that they'd keep me on file if anything else opened up. WTF?! I truly can not win! No one wants to hire me, I can't get pregnant, and my body won't even function normally. I feel like a freak. :( 

It's just not a great day. Sorry all.