Whoever

invented white chocolate coconut coffee creamer is a GOD or GODDESS!! It's so good I don't think I even cared that it wasn't low fat. ::shrugs:: Well it is Saturday (for those who had yet to notice) and this Saturday my husband does NOT have his head in the toilet and I don't have a migraine (yet). It's a good day. Shadow has already supplied me with his urine sample for this week (good kitty) and Darwin is actually calm for the moment. J is in the office doing who knows what on the computer and I'm here enjoying my coffee. I'm trying to not stress and I think so far I'm doing ok. I have to make another doctor's appointment. My mother in law switched my PCP for me and now it's time to start it up. I'm feeling extremely uncomfortable since I didn't get my period this month either and I don't feel it coming. I thought maybe....but no. So that keeps my no blood for 09 streak going. Hot dog.

It's the last day of February today which means tomorrow starts the birthday countdown. 1 Month until the big 25. I told J I wanted to do something that we've never done for my b-day which would be see people but I think I may just be fooling myself. We have so few friends and I do mean few...to the point where no one remembes my birthday unless I remind them, and now with the advent of facebook and myspace and those lovely reminders. Yay. Even still, it's on a weekday this year and I truly hate celebrating things on a day that they aren't so...
I may have just successfully convinced myself that celebrating my birthday is a bad idea. :) Go me. I wonder if that is a marketable skill. Speaking of which I need to figure out what my marketable skills are...

Enough rambling from me I am sure I am boring you to death. I should finish up this coffee and go take a shower.
Until next time blogger...

OMG

Before I begin I would like you to pick your jaw up off the floor. I am well aware this is the 2nd post in 24 hours. :)

I would first like to thank someone profusely for rescuing me today. She is a new reader as well as my co-worker. Without her I would have been stuck at work all day while feeling as crummy as I do. I think the lamb burgers that we had last night just did not agree with me...last night OR today. J was sick this morning too. :( So! Thank you lady, you know who you are!!

I wanted to add in some photos for you all. some of Darwin as well as the Doom Buggy. Yes my car's name is the Doom Buggy. Why? Well because this hangs in the back window:

Here's a pic of the car from the website, I'll be taking pics of MY car when the weather is nicer.
So now some pics of Darwin for your viewing pleasure. :)

Oh hai, remember me?

I truly am awful at this. I say I'll blog and then I'm never here. I don't know why it stays with me, I'm like a bad boyfriend. One of these days I'll try to sign on and it just won't be here anymore. It would serve me right too. Oh well. Want to know how I bad I've been? Well February has been an extremely productive month. That car we went to look at? Bought it. Have I posted a picture? Nope. Will I? Let's not even go there...
We also added an addition to our family. (No I'm not pregnant gee thanks for reminding me and making me feel like a failure! Sheesh!) We adopted another cat. One and a half year old Darwin. Shadow is not thrilled with him despite Dar being IN LOVE with Shadow. I mean head over heels (paws?!). He looks for him, chasses him, tries to play with him, kisses his head when Shadow is sleeping and tries to snuggle up to his back. That last one only occurs when Shadow is out cold, otherwise it would never happen. It can't if he is aware. I think Shadow regards Dar for what he is, an annoying little brother. Darwin thinks they're playing while Shadow is bopping him on the head and hissing. There's no blood shed so I'm not worrying. Shadow talks tough but this is the first time in 16 years he's figured out he can hiss. :)

Yeah I know, I suck for not posting pictures. Maybe there will be a special post just for pics.

Maybe

Work is work. It's been crazy and annoying. I'm currently supposed to be filing out a profile to help them get me into a better position. There is nothing on these papers that says husband becomes HUGE success and Ashley resorts to 1950's mother and housewife. :( Hmph. (Hell I'd just be happy with the mother bit...) In all seriousness this thing is fuckin hard and I'm taking a break because I was crying out of sheer frustration. (I know I KNOW I am way to fuckin hormonal. Which is a hoot because according to the last lab results I have extremely high testosterone for a girl. Shouldn't I be immune to crying at the drop of a hat? Hah And wait till I find the fucker who keeps dropping his hat....) So yes, profile=evil pile of death papers and Ashley feels like a reject with no marketable skills.

Moving on...

After last Endo visit we learned that I am apparently insulin resistant which means I get to go back on Metformin the evil little pills that make me live in the bathroom. I'm waiting to hear back from my Gyno about this. There has to be another way. I was told the only way to neutralize the high testosterone would be to go on BC. Uhhh moron (Endo) I WANT to get pregnant, not PREVENT it. Asshat. (I've always wanted to say that!! {type that?!} It feels better than douchebag I think...thoughts?)

Fuck them all I say. I'm heading to new territory and by that I mean new docs. My MIL has one in mind so we'll see how that goes. He's a fab diagnostician apparently and since I hate my PCP this seems like a good place to start. If I like him then he can recommend the other docs I need.

I think I may have officially caught up with this thing! Score!! Now leave me some comments to make me feel loved. Leave some!!



Please?

Long time

Work has been kicking my ass...I am so freakin exhausted I never have time to update anymore! Sorry!!! Ok so where did I leave off?? Ah yes, the Endo visit was Wednesday. The Dr tried to tell me that he wasn't the guy for me to see. Ummm no... He said my thyroid was within the normal limits and then he asked if he could examine me. Guess what? My thyroid is enlarged. Hmmmm 

He asked if he could do a bunch f blood tests and I agreed. I have a follow up on the 9th so rather than drive myself crazy and speculate here I'll just wait.

.....

Work is hard. I have an extremely demanding job and the other day I had my first peson call back specifically to yell at me. Then o try and shake it off I called another person to try and help them..they got nasty too. My hormones are so screwed up what did I do? Burst right into tears!! Talk about embarrassing!! No one blamed me of course as I am still new and this was the first time but jeez...people are so dumb. Overall it was just a tough week. Luckily they hired my assistant and she should be starting this week.

Last night I had dinner with Imommy. Had a good time, it was great to be out without the guys. This might have to be a tradition. ;) I'm also trying to get a karaoke night together as she has never been to a bar OR karaoke. Some of my girlfriends are down so I'll see about organinzing that...

Let's see what else?

Today J, mom and I went to Chipotles for burritos and then to the Museum of Science. Spent a few hours there and had a good time. Then we decided it is time to get another cat. I have heard/read that when you have an older cat and plan on getting another it can be a god idea to have their times overlap so the n00b can learn from the older one. So....that's the plan. If anyone knows of any kittens who need a home or young-ish kitties, let me know. We had dinner at one of our fave places, Floramos over in Chelsea by my mom's. Seriously huge portions, AMAZING food and great prices. Go there if you haven't.

Later we went to pick up some Blue Moon and discovered there spring ale is out, Rising Moon. It's ok, but I find nothing is as good as the original. there was also a beer tasting in the back of the local liquor store. FUN. We tried some things that were good and also some that should never pass through human lips again. All in all a day full of win. We just finished Get Smart off netflix and knocked back a few beers (I'm not pg nor am I even ovulating so I'm going to live it up!) and that brings me to this update. J is currently in our office on the big Mac (hehe I so went there) researching cars and prices because tmw we have an appt to go look at the 2009 ford focus. It's time for Baby to get a new car!! Sweet!

I'll let ya know how that goes. Now despite this possibly being TMI, I'm feeling a bit frisky and want a piece of my husband! Ciao!!!

It's up to you...

I must be out of my mind. I have been sitting down with the Director where I work to learn more about the business. I won't get better on the phone unless I know what goes on backwards and forwards. Well in chatting with Jay and learning the techniques he uses I have started to really think about what I want. Add that to J thinking of law school and where he wants to go I may have come to a conclusion. 

I want to go back to NYC.

I miss it.

I know why it was miserable last time, we didn't have enough money. NYC is not for the shallow-pocketed. But if we were both working, had a nicer apartment (read: ELEVATOR) it would be great! I work for a career management firm, they help people get into the jobs of their choosing and on average their clients make about a 30% salary increase. I have two choices, I either suggest they open an office in NYC or I hire them. J would love to go to Columbia for law....

We both do miss it terribly.

I wonder if this is just crazy talk or if this is actually feasible in the next few years.

Hmmmmm

Weekend Update

So it would seem that I have 0 time. I never update this thing anymore. I miss it. Sundays appear to be my only days where I think to myself:gee, I have a second to think AND type". I'm currently parked on the couch watching the snow an awaiting breakfast. My husband is making me bacon and eggs*

(by eggs I mean egg beaters...)

We've just finished watching season 1 of "How I Met You Mother". This show is hysterical, "legendary" one might say. I really should get up and start the laundry...but I figure I have time. Judging by the amount of snow that is falling and its speed, I'll be inside all day. So much for he gym. ::sigh:: If only I could muster the energy. 

I have my Endo appointment next week. Wish me luck! I'm nervous and excited all at the same time. I feel as though big things are happening. J is making decisions regarding law school, work is moving very quickly for me, I could be getting healthier by the end of next week...

So we shall see. Next Sunday I won't be so carefree. I have to attend a baby shower.

...

Yeah. It's for my cousin's fiancee(if they EVER get married. Not his first kid OR first fiancee mind you...) and one I feel extremely awkward because I have only met this girl once but also I'll be uncomfy for other reasons. SO I plan on lugging this large impressive camera and shooting all day so no one will see my face and gawd forbid any tears. 

It looks as if my brunch has arrived.

Peace!

Perks of being The Wife

I'm sitting in my somewhat toasty living room this snowy Sunday morning with a small electric blanket tucked around my legs, a mug of hot coffee to my left and a purring cat to my right. Where is my husband? Out shoveling the walk, driveway, and rediscovering our cars. Why is he doing this? Well for starters, it needs to be done or no one will get to work tomorrow, but he's also doing it so I can go to the mall and purchase a pair of boots that are on sale. Why? He has a fear of me missing sales. Heh. Sometimes, it's good to be me. No, I did not ask him to do this, he does these things of his own volition. Good deal eh? What am I doing? While to the untrained eye it may seem as if I am loafing about this Sunday morn, I am in actuality doing the laundry. (which honestly, is like being out in the snow. The dryer is out on the porch, the NON-insulated porch.) In our house there are unspoken rules I guess you might call them. We have distinctly guys things and girls things. Laundry is a girl thing. Taking out the trash and the recyclables are guy things. Shoveling or any kind of yard work is also a guy thing. Cooking 99.9% of the time is a girl thing. Dishes are neutral territory now that I work too. I usually cook and he usually cleans. The litter box is just a me thing, he won't touch it. (Though he is aware that if and when he finally knocks me up he will have to be responsible for cleaning it. Poor Shadow...)

That's all I can think of right now for our chores.

In other news I was reading a TTC community where a girl asked if anyone had done a reading with Ruby. 

http://babiesaregems.angelfire.com/index.html

Apparently she is a psychic with lots of success. She charges a bit of money for a reading. On the one hand I'm kind of curious but on the other (my more cynical,  skeptic side) thinks it is rubbish. I think that maybe since I am not getting ay answers with doctors, any answers would feel great about now. I would like to know when I'd get a bfp, that'd be sweet. Someone in the community purchased a reading, maybe I'll just wait and see if she is right...