The King of Pop is gone...

R.I.P

Michael Jackson

August 29, 1958 – June 25, 2009

Today we lost a legend...

I have no words. :*(

Quote of the Day

Whatever you give a woman, she will make greater. If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby. If you give her a house, she'll give you a home. Groceries - a meal. Smile - her heart. So, if you give her crap, expect a ton of shit.

Got the results of the second MRI. CLEAN! Hooray, now we are no closer to having an answer than we were before. *grumble grumble grumble*

Of course my pcp has not scheduled a follow-up so I am not really sure where we stand with all this. Do we look for something else? What now? Argh.

Saw the therapist again this week, LL, I'll just use her initials as it's easier. She thinks my dosage needs to be upped (I agree) as well as I may need to be put on something else. We talked for a bit. She said that she knows it sucks but that I need to be patient while she and LS (the prescriber) figure out the right combination of meds as well as the correct dosage.

I can try to be patient. Honestly, it's not an anti-depressant that I need, I need something to calm me down. How to explain? Basically I want a bomb to be able to go off next to me and for me to just kinda look at it, shrug, and say "that's nice". I overreact to everything and it's stressful. I also have no control over it and that sucks. So, we are working on it. It's the best I can ask for right now.

Nothing positive on the job front right now. Can't take it personally though, the economy sucks. It's somewhat comforting to know there are tons of people out there struggling like me. Comforting in the sense that I won't take it personally. Still blows though...

Ya know, I don't think anyone reads this anymore. I don't get any comments. :( Oh well. Maybe I'm just not that interesting. ;)

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11. Is the bottle half-full or half-empty?
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14. What is your favorite guilty pleasure?
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update

No results from the 2nd MRI yet. Is no news still good news? I did see the diabetic nurse yesterday and since I am pre-diabetic (yadda yadda yadda) I have to watch what I eat (more than I do...*grumble grumble*) and when.

Whatever.

I got my prescription for Adderall today so here's hoping it has the same effect on me as it does most of the population that takes it. Significant weight loss! (Yes I actually have other reasons to be taking it...but this was my main one) The psycho-doc thinks I may have 2 things going on here, one that the Adderall will help and then something else that we haven't medicated yet. :) I see her again in a month so...we'll figure that out some more then I guess.

We had a yard sale on Sunday and both J and I got majorly sun-burned. I got it mainly on my right shoulder (was in a tube top so how I am not burned evenly on both shoulders I will never figure out) and aloe is not helping me much... I have had to wear one of J's hawaiian shirts since it is the only thing that doesn't hurt. Bras are out as well as anything tight on the spot. Sucks because I really can't not wear a bra. :) 

Tomorrow I'm heading down to my mom's house. She's been gone for a week on vacation with her bf. I miss her when she's away. She has Weds off from work so spending time with her is nice.

I think that's really all I have to say for now. Not much is happening around here.

Ciao all. 

Hey, leave some love if you've been reading. I'm curious to see if I still have an audience.

I should just live there!

Had the 2nd MRI last night. Sometimes I wonder how incompetent people truly are. They were all confused since I had been in last week for one. The nurse asks me if I am aware that my pcp ordered the same test as last week. Do I look like a MD? Do I have any idea what is going on and am I supposed to? Probably yes to that last one but I didn't. I told her to just do as she was told to do and let them figure it out. After all, I was already there.

Today I saw the therapist. She doesn't think I need someone to talk to, she thinks I need medication. I couldn't agree more. So we scheduled an appointment with the prescriber for next Tuesday as well as another appointment with her a week later just to see how I am getting on.

So, now I just have to wait another week until I can start the medication(s) that will hopefully make me feel normal again.

::sigh::