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Happy Birthday to me!

The phone interview went well today. I have a face to face interview scheduled for Monday at 2pm. It might be an interesting atmosphere though the pay is not fabulous but right now...I need something to get us by. So, wish me luck.

Met with an Endo today, a new one. Since my MIL got me in with my new PCP he has appointments lined up through April. This guy was young and extremely nice. I liked him a lot, which is good since I rarely like anyone. :) He took about 5 tubes of blood to rule out some thigs. I also have a take home saliva test. The big thing we want to rule out is Cushing's Syndrome. He said if everything comes back and it looks good he will refer me to a Reproductive Endo to deal with the other issues. He also prescribed me an intense Vitamin D supplement as I am apparently kinda deficient.
That's all for updates for now. I got some dishes to wash and dinner to start soon. Such is the life of a housewife...

Yes I would like fries with my shake!

For the past two nights in a row my husband has opted for sleep over sex. What the hell?! Sorry, now you know why my blog has an adult content warning. I'm more than a little annoyed. I may have to just jump him when he comes home but it's just not my style...
::sigh::
Today was semi-productive. I went on a nice long walk today (will be paying for it tmw), hell I even broke a sweat! I also got beeped at...hehe my booty has still got it apparently, of course it does seem to always attract the same type...oh well, still an ego boost.
I got an email from a job I emailed my resume to yesterday. They want to do a phone interview tomorrow at 2:30. Too bad I have a doctor appointment at 1:00. I hope I am done by the time they call. It's little things like this that stress me out hardcore. :( I know it's not really a big deal, but I totally wig out.
Let's see...Darwin is cute as a button but he is also a devil-cat. OMG if he doesn't knock off whatever the hell he does at the ass crack of dawn I may be selling him on Ebay! The of course you pick him up to scold him and the paws come up, the eyes go to slits and he turns on his motor. The little shit knows he irresistible. Shadow has taken to sleeping on my second pillow above my head and Darwin sleeps between my knees and J has the whole other side of the bed to move freely. Jerk. I may be married but I am still a cat lady. Last night he looked at them and said we didn't have enough, we needed more cats. This from a self-proclaimed DOG person. LOL, he has actually adjusted, he's an animal person. Reason #7649 why I married him.
Ugh, did I just leak a little sap?

So in all seriousness I have been thinking about writing a book for some time now. As I was in the shower today (hey, it's where I do my best brainstorming) I started to piece it together a bit more and then I got to the question of fleshing out my main character, she would obviously need a back story, I mean what she does day to day. In short, her job. I feared I would be unable to believably write about her job and thus the whole thing would fall apart. I must be crazy...
Am I crazy? I'm thinking your silence breeds consent. Gee thanks guys!
OK! Enough rambling, I gotta throw dinner in the over. Marinated pork in the worlds greatest pork marinade. YUM!

interesting...

So I learned something yesterday. Let me first back up a bit...whenever I have a confrontation I usually wind up in tears. Actually when anything major happens I usually wind up in tears. It usually has very little to do with how I actually feel, I just have 0 control over it.
So last friday when JW and JR took me into JW's office to "dismiss" me, you can imagine my reaction.
So what did I learn? Well while speaking with JR yesterday I learned that he didn't know that I didn't know it was coming. Like I had said in my last post, had I just known that once they found a replacement all would have been fine. He thought I knew that already, he thought JW had said it, which he clearly had not. So apparently when I started to cry, JR got teary-eyed as well. Not that I noticed, but he said so. Which I thought was kind of sweet...sorta.
I also learned what my initial impression to him was before I even opened my mouth. He said "young bride who is going to want to have kids soon". I asked how he knew and apparently I glow. LOL. I will take that as a compliment but I have never been told I glow before. LOL

So that is what I learned. I also learned that I am extremely overwhelmed by this process with AAr (didn't want to call her AA cuz then I'd sound like an alcoholic..lol) I don't know if we should just aim for NYC. I can't see narrowing down my resume so far towards theaters ad trying for something here. What is here? Nothing really....
J says we should just move into his parent's house and then if I have to go to NYC then we'll at least have some money to do it. It's terrifying but kind of exciting and I think it's just what we (I) need. If only he had his answer regarding law school.....

What do you guys think??

ugh

So things are not looking so great or us here. On Friday I lost my job. Well, re-organized was how it was put. In all honesty it's not as bad as I think, I did hate the job and we all knew it was never going to last. What sucks is how they went about it and seeing as how they are men tact is not even in their vocabulary. A little warning would have been nice, something along the lines of "when we find a replacement we're going to move you somewhere else" then it wouldn't have been such a shock and the wouldn't have had to be all dramatic and drag me into the office. Because it wasn't as if it was malicious or even like I sucked at my job and so I was being canned. Not the case at all so I am told. Despite not liking it I was actually quite good at it. So all I am saying is tact people...I knew I wasn't going to stay, you knew I wasn't going to stay, I knew you were hiring, you didn't have to "dismiss" me. Kind of lame. On the bright side I am receiving what normally goes for several thousand dollars of their services for free because they just like me so much. :) I will also be handling small per diem projects on the side for them, being paid at my regular rate. So I wasn't canned, and I wasn't laid off, I'm not sure what I was. Replaced I guess. Eh...let's see how long this new one lasts, lol. If you knew the turn over rate for that position....I think the finance guy told me it was up to 41. (well when you require so much for soo little..what do you expect? And despite not giving a shit I worked damn hard, my girl P can testify to that one!) Speaking of P, that's what sucks the most I think. I don't make decent friends often and I thought she and I were doing quite well in that department. I'm sad that I won't be seeing her every day now. Hopefully when we say we'll keep in touch we actually will. :)
The other thing that sucks ass is we may lose our apartment. We are going to try to hold out until J hears back about law school and then decide what to do. I know the most economical and logical thing to do is to move back in with his parents but dammit, I do NOT want to.
So that's what's going on right now. I'm kinda feeling shitty and low so any words of comfort you may have would be much appreciated. If you want to tell me in actuality I DO suck, please hold of until further notice.
Thanks

I had an eventful day today, first a three hour interview (oh yes..I plan on leaving my current position, or at least severely cutting down the hours) and then off to Lahey clinic for appointment numero uno in a long ine of upcoming appointments. Yes my new pcp is running the gamut on tests for me, he's determined to figure out whats wrong BEFORE we tackle the lack of pregnancy for me. Last week we talked and he tok about 15 tubes of blood (fun) and today was an ultra sound. Now I'm special, I got a regular ultrasound as well as a trans vaginal ultrasound, the 3rd I've ever had (the 2nd in the last 6 months...) Now if you've never had one of these you don't know what you are missing!
(Did you catch my sarcasm??) This little bad boy I nicknamed Pretty Fly as in, for a white guy (I mean look at this thing!?) It's not horrible but it certainly isn't comfortable. :(
Hehe, now you all know why my blog has a warning. LOL

So I wish I had more to say. I could type and bitch about my job but ya know, it's not worth it right now.
I've currently got a corned beef boiling away on the stove and it smells divine!! I'm getting hungry! It should be done in about 30 minutes. YUM YUM YUM!

In other news, my 25th birthday is coming up (the 31st) Apparently my husband is planning something...::shrugs:: but I dunno! I've never had a party or a get together...could be exciting!

Well I should go check on my dinner. I'll TRY to be better about this thing!

wtf...

On my way home I passed by McDonalds where they have a sign up that says they are hiring Assistant Managers starting at $30,ooo a year. That is MORE than what I make a year by a few thousand dollars. That is sick.

Oh and as hard as I work I was old yesterday that I am only doing 70% of my job because as I am not perfect at that yet I can't handle the last 30%. WTF?! Good, keep it. You pay me shit now...why should I work harder and stress further?

FUCK

Snow day!!

I didn't think I got them anymore. Well technically I don't but when you get a crap load of snow and no one plows your street and you have a brand new car with a driver that is not so skilled in snow driving...you get a snow day! Basically what it comes down to is I did not feel safe driving my car is this junk, that and the fact that I could not get out of the driveway. :)
Of course my darling husband shoveled the driveway out and when the plow deigned to come by (about 10 mins ago) he plowdthe snow over the driveway and up against the fence trapping the Doom Buggy. ::sigh:: Even if I wanted to get out now I couldn't. Oh well. I hope they don't get too irritated with me...

Apparently despite hating having to get up for work it does agree with me. Today after I established that I wasn't going anywhere I went back to bed, only for an hour. Now I am watching tv and BORED. I truly shouldn't be watching the show I am watching. It is set in NYC and I'm feeling so sick for it. ::sigh::

I had to fill out a profile at work. It's not for work, it's because my boss knows this isn't for me and I am incredibly unhappy. So, since they are a career placement firm what better place is there for me to be? Yup, so I had to fill out an incredibly difficult questionnaire about myself and past experiences and realized that both are pretty slim. (At least I am slim somewhere hehe ok that really wasn't all that funny...) Anyway there is a geographical preference and guess what mine was: NYC! Of course. So here's hoping...

Well since I am home I guess I should go do something useful.